She's been unconscious for the past 4 hours.

The doctor said she had a panic attack in sleep. Which was very rare .

Everyone in the house was tensed for her .

She was having nightmares god knows why ?

She's hiding something, that's killing her from inside.

God I feel like a terrible person for hitting her like that , Fuck. I lost my control today, I crossed the line .

Once I told her that I would rather die to hurt her and now am doing exactly the opposite of it .

Does she deserves she ?

You Broken her without even knowing her side of the story. And now you are feeling guilty. How noble of you . My subconscious mocked me.

Stop it ! Get out of my head you fucker .

But one thing I don't understand, is why on earth did she take my name ? .

Why ?

There's so many questions and the worst part, there's no answer.

I have to find out everything before things get worse.

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My head hurts, I couldn't sleep the whole night. At least one of us is sleeping.

It's already morning, and I pretend to be asleep. I saw her , she woke up . She turned towards me and then gently kissed my forehead and whispered "Thank you! for taking care of me ."

And then she disappeared into the bathroom.

I couldn't sleep anymore, everyone was going to the Mandir except for me . Because I didn't believe in God anymore. I used it too, a long time ago but he took something from me . God himself vanished her from the earth. She was my only hope, she was my everything yet she was nowhere to be found.

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~FLASHBACK~

AGES AGO-

"So, will you wait for me to come back". I whispered. " Or forget me miss ."

"What kind of question is that?" She asked.

She was glaring at me with those beautiful Grace green eyes. She was a goddess herself. So soft , so fragile yet fire .

My fire

My everything

My love

" I love you" . I murmured under my breath while looking straight into her eyes.

" I love you more Adi ". She whispered while kissing my nose .

My expressions changed, gosh is she now reading minds or what.

She chuckled and said .

"God  Adi , stop Overthinking". She said." I am reading your thoughts though."

"Fucking hell ." I yelled in shock

"Language boy ". She yelled back.

" So , my dear future wife" I asked." Will you wait for me or are you going to marry someone."

" Adi , you already know my answer." She whispered." Yet you are behaving like this."

I cupped her face and kissed her forehead. And then nose .

" I know Fire ". I chuckled. " I was just messing with you."

" You know, even if I have to wait till the end I will wait." She gasped

And a tear fell from the corner of her eye.

I kissed her forehead once again and hugged her .

" So , Drama king  ". She spoke. " Bag pack ho gaya."

I nodded while enjoying the Banaras ghat . She Rested her head over my shoulder.

~FLASHBACK END~

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~PRESENT~

As , I was so lost in my thoughts I didn't even know when she came back from the washroom.

I turned towards the room from the balcony and then I stopped for a moment.

There she was standing in front of the mirror. She was wearing a pink saree with matching bangles. She looked like a goddess herself. She reminds me of .....

What the fuck are you even thinking?

I scolded myself.

She is not her , she never can be . Both of them are different.

Is it ? My subconscious asked

Oh! Hell no . Not again.

Oh please! Don't pretend like she even smells like her . Forget everything just look at those eyes. And think. Again my subconscious said.

Fuck no! Shut the fuck up before I jump from the balcony.

Me and my subconscious ......

SHREYA.....

It might be just a name for some people, but the day I found her she made me feel something. She definitely broke the walls , those I have built long ago.

Gosh that kamar chain. It's really hard to control myself. I wanna rip those blouses and ....

What no no .

Fuck my life .

She's really getting under my skin without even trying.

Without looking at her and wasting my time . I went straight towards the washroom.

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I could still feel his gaze on me . The way her was looking at me was god . As if the predator was waiting. And when the right time comes .

BOOM ....

But I won't repeat my mistakes anymore. I have become a lot weak. Now it's time to play the game .

'Aditya Singh Rathore' , you started this game and I will end it . You made me believe that you truly loved me yet you destroyed me just because I refused to give my body to you.

I promise you I will wait for you forever, yet you crushed me in every possible way.

But as I always say.

" Aurat jitna shiddat se pyar karti hai .

Usse lacks gunah shiddat se nafrat."

" Tumne abhi takh baas , Shreya ka kamzori dekha hai . Ek woh thi , jisse tumne barbad kar diya hai or jo yeah hai jo tumhe barbad karegi chahe iss mein mjhe khud hi  dubara barbad hona pare ."

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We already did the Puja , all of the family members were present even Reyansh bhai and Siddharth except for him . Waise bhi

Who cares?

It was time for the evening Puja , as the pandit started lighting up the huge diyas . Goosebumps appeared over my dead body.

We all stood there, joining hands . Tears fell from my eyes. As memory crashed into my mind . My chest was burning. I could feel it  in the air .

And this time it felt as if either I will get everything or I will lose everything.

Something is wrong, why am I feeling as If someone is watching. And not in a good way .

" Bholenath, sab pata hai aapko. Mein iss baar aapse kuch mangne nhi aayi hoon. Baas sach ka sath mangne aayi hoon. Or agr kbhi bhi mere se khud kuch bhi galti hua ho uska saza bhi mjhe de dijiye."

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We were all sitting near the ghat . Everyone was talking about something and I was lost in my thoughts as usual. And then ....

" No way ". Reyansh spoke.

" What ? What happened now ? ." Maa asked.

" Oh my god ". Siddharth spoke.

And then suddenly everyone was looking at me . I didn't know what to say or to think and then I realised they were looking past me .

I turned around and then froze. There he was

'Aditya Singh Rathore '.

In a baby pink kurta and white pants. He was sitting at least 5 steps behind me . He didn't realise it yet that all of us were looking. We seem lost .

And then he turned towards me , our eyes met. And for a moment I felt like the whole universe had frozen. It was only him and I. It felt weird. Those eyes, they held emotions as if he was crying inside more like begging in front of God.

And then , I realised mom called him and he walked towards me and sat right next to me not too close not too far .

" Pink huhn ! ." Aryan teased him .

He didn't respond, not even a single glaring.

" Of course they are matching." Siddharth spoke.

And then I realised I was also wearing Pink . My cheeks flushed red , my ears started burning.

"Stop it . Stop teasing them." Papa warned them .

" Aacha dadi , Shivji ka kitna naam hai ". Aryan asked.

" Beta mjhe zyada to pata nhi ". Dadi said .

And then I started speaking.....

" Aashutosh,Kantha,Kapalin,

Kedarnath,Bhooteshwar,

Kochadaiyaan,Bhudev, Kundali

Adiguru ,Adinath ,Adiyogi,Aja

Akshaya gun ,Anagh ,Anant Drishti

Augadh ,Avyaya Prabhu ,Bhairav

Bhalanetra ,Bholenath ,Нага

Girijapati ,Mahesh ,Gunagrahin

Maheshwar , Sarveshwar ,Shambh

Gurudev ,Nagabhushan ,Shankar

Nataraj ,Shantha ,Nilkanth ,Shoolin

Jaradhishama ,Nityasundar Shreshth

Nritya priya ,Shrikanth

Kailashadhipati ,Omkar

Palanhaar ,Jagadisha ,Jatin

Kailashnath. Kamalakshan

Panchatsaran , Parameshwar

Paramjyoti ,Pashupati

Shrutiprakash ,Skandaguru

Someshwara ,Sukhad ,Swayambhu

Tejaswani Trilochana ,Trilokpati

Pinakin ,Pranav ,Bhutapal

Lalataksh ,Priyabhakt ,Tripurari

Chandrapal ,Chandraprakash

Lingadhyaksh Lokankar

Priyadarshan ,Pushkar

Trishoolin ,Umapati ,Dayalu

Lokapal, Pushpalochan Vachaspati

Devadi Deva ,Mahabuddhi

Ravilochan ,Vajrahasta

Dhanadeepa ,Mahadev ,Rudra

Varada ,DhyandeerMahakal

Dhyutidhara ,Digambar

Durjaneeya, Durjay ,Gangadhar

Mahamaya ,Mahamrityunjay

Mahanidhi Mahashaktimay

Mahayogi ,Sadashiv ,Sanatan

Vedakarta ,Sarvacharya ,Sarvashiv

Veerabhadra ,Vishalaksh ,Sarvatapan

Sarvayoni ,Vishveshwar,Vishwanath

Vrishavahan."

After I finished that and realised nobody had said a single word . When I looked up everyone was frozen. I was confused at the moment.

" Ummm....guys". I said.

Still no word

" Did I leave any names ? " I whispered

" What the F....." Reyansh muttered under his breath.

" Am Proud of you ". Dadi finally spoke.

When our eyes met , her were already softened , already proud.

And then I turned a little bit , I saw him looking straight into the sky. His expressions are Cold , Calculative.

And he was about to look at me , when I turned towards the rest. I could still feel his gaze on me . His gaze was burning holes in my back .

" I ... I don't feel well , can I please go to the room ". I asked papa .

" Of course beta , you go and have rest okh ." Papa said.

I stood up and started walking towards the Mansion. And somehow after walking for at least 10 minutes I felt like I may have forgotten the way .

Fuck my life .

And then I felt, someone grabbed my arm and pulled me towards some dark place, I was about to scream but he was so fast and he much a Handkerchief on my mouth and I was about to open my eyes who was it before that even happe it was all dark .

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